Emily didn't have her labs today

Emily did not have her labs today and we have no flipping clue what her ANC is. Dosage remains at ZERO. :-)

I wish it were really that easy to deal with, just move on as if it's over. But I can say that ending chemo was easier than I had envisioned. I thought I would have more anxiety than I do. I worry every day, but no more than I did when she was on therapy. I think the week of March 30th with all the tests and the ultimate results on April 2nd will be a hard week. But I realize we can't get to a cure without going through weeks and times like these. Tracy and I are extremely hopeful for good results. I don't even think about the chances for a bad result, but somewhere in the back of my mind I know it's a possible outcome, but I'm not dwelling on it, or more dwelling on the near %90 chance that it's a good result. I made up the %90 btw, no one really knows. It's nice to have a vacation to be packing for that week of all the tests.

Speaking of odds, I FINALLY after two years went and read the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society's web page on non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. I figure that I can finally let myself know a little more. So they claim that for all NHL's,(non-hodgkins Lymphoma) cure rate is currently %84.4. The scary news was 30 years ago it was near %0 for 5 years. Emily and all of us are lucky to be alive now, and even though the LLS won't be biased on treatment centers, we were and are lucky to have Stanford and Dr. Link.

Thanks for all the support along the way from our readers.